I am not sure I will get this finished before posting….
Today has been a very draining day, emotionally that is. KLT asked how and I responded with just pick somthing and I will tell you. He only picked one.
Well first there is a past collegue who is sick, very sick. Cancer. Cancer has moved into both lungs and the brain. Facing our own mortality is never good.
Then there is my good friend who either doesn’t trust or doesn’t consider me as good of a friend as I think of her. She kept something so big bottled in facing it all alone. WHAT THE CRAP! I am here, loyal and ready.
Then there is my new puppy. How do you pick up that little thing and then not have time for her. How do you decide that you want to come over and visit her when you never wanted to play with her. HOW? How do you expect me to not fly off the handle? Thank your lucky stars that GOD was watching out for you today.
How do you have 2 beautiful children and just let them loose? How do you not pay attention to them? How do you let stay out till dark, when dark is 10 pm and they are 7 and 4? How do you let them grow up only speaking spanish in an English enviroment? HOW DARE YOU! HOW DARE YOU take something so precious and turn it loose in the neighborhood like an ‘outdoor’ cat! They are beautiful little sponges and they are adorable. It breaks my heart something feirce. YOU DO NOT DESERVE THEM! It is terribly unfortunate that some people can’t have children and yet you don’t even seem to notice that you have been given such a wonderful gift.
Then there is the ADHD. That is bullshit and an excuse for behavior that has developed as a result of the enviroment and circumstances. CHANGE THOSE!!
Then there was a special on TV about turret syndrome. How do you have a child with special needs and then have more? Why? What were you thinking? A girl I knew once had an older brother that was mentally challenged. She was never right. Why? Someone help me make sense of this please. I felt so bad for those kids, it just seems terrible and a lot of stress for their family.
How do you cheat me on a good stove? How do you sneak over and give me half of what I was asking? Got a sob story? So do I. Wanna hear it?
Why did you call to find out ‘what happened’ and then sound like you could of cared less?
Why did she leave? Everything has been crappy since then? Why does she ask how it is going? I can’t lie and I can’t tell the truth what does that leave? How do I tell her that it was all just bad since she left. ARGGG!
Why doesn’t my dad check his email?
Why can’ some people accept “that is just the way it is”. I know it’s not necessarily right but it is what was asked of us.
ok going to bed
arggggggggggggggggggggggg!!!
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