A day of first..

Yesterday was quite a day of first. Before you read this just know that I am surprisingly ok.

Thursday September 20, 2012 might not be a day that I will remember forever. It technically wasn’t a huge day of events but it is something that I feel the need to write down and remind myself that it’s okay.  On this day we’d load Summer (our Ford Edge) and head for Kalamazoo Michigan, stopping in Indiana to see my grandmother in the hospital.

Kerry got his first speeding ticket. That is right, his first. Now it’s not a big deal everyone gets a speeding ticket at some point in their life. He was gawking at the planes along 65N in Louisville, KY. It was the first time that I was actually wearing my seat belt. (for reals I had it on) He’s pretty mad at himself and even thought I have nagged him from time to time about speeding and being a jerk while driving I wasn’t upset. I am not mad and to be honest I am not sure why. Sure that is a fairly large sum of money throw out the window. But I guess it won’t matter at the end of the day.

Thursday was the first time that I saw my grandmother be cranky and give my mother the shittiest look I have ever seen. My grandmother has never looked frail to me, never seen her look pissed off and never seen her in a state of such disarray. I can’t say it was the first time I have seen my mother look the way she did. But I just knew how grandma felt, I realized her frustration and how hard this is for her to deal with. I may just have to work from INDY for a bit and be with grandma so someone listens to her. You realize in all matters people just want to be heard and feel like someone cares.

Thursday the 20th was also the #24HOP. If you are unfamiliar you better not be a SQL professional cause if you are you totally missed out. 24 hours of PASS is a preview of sessions selected for PASS SUMMIT, these are delivered online and are FREE! So yesterday marks the first time in 3 maybe 4 years that I have not sat in front of our big TV and watched sessions. I was a bit sad when I realized this but I guess it’s okay I will be at SUMMIT.

This morning I discovered that even though I prepared and made list and double checked everything I forgot to turn on the GPS logger. Ever since Kerry and I got that things we have taken it on every trip. So this is our first trip to Kalamazoo and I failed at getting the GPS going. BOO!

Ok, why did I tell you all this? Well because if you know me you know that OCD and anxiety can sometimes take over and almost make me crazy. You also might know that I have been working 50 hours a week on a frustrating project and then trying to keep up with my normal home life activities and prepare for this 11 day trip. So the fact that I didn’t just loose it yesterday when I realized all these things were happening is just fantastic and the fact that I am looking at this list and basically shrugging my shoulders at it makes me feel good. Sure none of these are that big of a deal. But it just honestly made me feel good that I didn’t snap.